Today well, today I'm driving on the highway eckkk.

Last time:

WARNING: Stay Away

I was in the right lane.
Had my blinker turned on right.

>>      I went straight   :]

.........

And then it's a night out with my brother for our last dinner together,
because tomorrow he's off to college.

What fun, right.

Everyones asking - "Do you want him to go? Are you looking forward to it???"

And, well, no I'm really not.
When I was little he always watched out for me & now it's no different.
We finish each others sentences & our parents fight more than we do.

Though we have different tastes in music - we're always looking for each others advice.

Lovely isn't it?

So though I go along with the jokes, 
"You get the great life of an only child for a while",
Or
"Mom and dad are all for you."

My mind is saying no.
Becuase if it's going to be anything in my house it's going to be...

Quiet.

So here are some poems I've written:

Mostly about my ex & family;
When I was mad @ them, so all of these poems are dark or depressing.

Don't think I'm a kid that hates life -
Writing is just the way I vent out my anger.

& Wendy wanted to read some - plus she made the Newspaper!
http://spocgirl.bravejournal.com/ 

(Untitled)
Left your wounds uncut
You left your self-uncut
But I can see the blood coming out your eyes and through your heart.

You didn't want to cry
You did cry.

But your pain is shown through your actions
Through your black feathers that were once an angel wings.

- Death.

Where has this life gone 
Where is your pride, your purpose
When you die, your soul will vanish
You will be lost 

- A ghost
 
And your bones will be as sand.
As you fade away and no one cares.

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This one I posted 2 entries down.

Thinking that this is their body.
Without a care of what I want or who I want to be.
I have no identity.
Their vision is perfection. Preppy. poison of the soul.
And I have no control.

I'm letting go. This is the end.
No more negotiations. I have my limitations.
My attitude is because of you, you've lit the fuse.
And now it's over.
Go think this over.

I'm indepedent
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New one

Stop Looking

Refresh your mind to the conditions once defined.
Time isn’t slow, don’t waste it on those who don’t behold
Dream is but a loss of mind
where we wish we could be on the other side.
Holding down a forgotten sound
Laughter will not be found.

Trapped to insanity
Captive within a soul
For those who dare to behold
A Life within a dream.

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This one I'm still working on; it doesn't make sense and thats the point.

A witness
Beyond remorse

A star
A child
A boy
A girl
life
death
A soul
or two
A knife
A gun
some hate
A nun
A heart
Apart
Without love
Is undone
Don’t leave
Without peace
A tear or cut
A tear

To Drown

Skin for life
And beauty to frown

Greed
A stone
A prick of cold
Sin unfolds

An angel up holds
A human
A loss
A no man with costs
A jail
Or ten
All forbidden until the end
A cry
A voice
Ripped apart since a boy
A cloud
A shadow
Young hearts at battle
Destruction
Fear
Betrayal
We are all here

Nothing
Everything

Everything
Nothing

We are all here
Betrayal
Fear
Destruction
Young hearts at battle
A shadow
A cloud
Ripped apart since a boy
A voice
A cry
All forbidden until the end
Or ten
A jail
A no man with costs
A loss
A human
An angel up holds
Sin unfolds
A prick of cold
A stone
Greed

And beauty to frown
Skin for life

To Drown
A tear
A tear or cut

Without peace
Don’t leave
It’s undone
Without love
Apart
A heart
A nun
some hate
A gun
A knife
or two

A soul
death
life
A girl
A boy
A child
A star

A witness
Beyond remorse

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END!
 

Woah, like, I'm, like, so bored.

Ever since I've gotten back from my vacations - i don't know what to do with myself.



...I've even practiced playing the piano....

SOMEBODY SAVE ME! That is just not normal for me.

& I practiced so long that I was actually good at 4 different songs.
Woah, I must be going through one of those weird phases or something.

& & then I wrote at least 3 poems and drew a lot. And then there is always tv and lazynesss.

Who knows, maybe I'll find home life not to be so horrible sooner or later.

Naaaaaaaaaaaa. I want another vacation!

Now...

That's all.

 

PLUS I'll leave you a poem I wrote:

OMGAWSSsssssssssssh

It's been like, 1232534657 years since I've written.
This is about the 1st couple days that I am actually home this summer.

So No NO NOOO I'm not leaving you - I'm just as busy as I could possibly be.

Lets see in the beginning of the summer I went to the Bahamas & that was an experience,
I don't think I could explain it so I'm just going to tell you this: Paradise. & I'll let you look for yourself.

http://www.atlantis.com/atlantis_layers800.asp

Then a day after that I went to Baldhead Island. If you don't know what that is which...1 in like 100 wouldn't even know. So umm, it's an island that you can only get to by Ferry. Cars aren't allowed...so..well this is the best part - YOU GET TO DRIVE GOLF CARTS EVERYWHERE. And it's hysterical because people decorate there golfcarts like cars. Some have shocks and some have limo golf carts..it's schweeet.

& & then like a couple of days after that I went right to a college to get art training. Exciting. Actually I learned a lot - & met a ton of new people, most who I'm still friends with -

& I don't know weither you can experience the same joy as I had,
but it was fansinating to say an art turm..and have someone actually understand it.

Amazing, right. 
..........

Well I hope you guys don't hate me for being gone - I'll try to comment back ASAP

<3